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srsly, damn cranky tonight.
I realise that I actually don't like a lot of stuff but I've been convincing myself that it doesn't matter.
tsk.
and, srsly, I tell you plans alrdy, don't throw the qns back at me can? there's a reason why I asked you first right?!
tsk.
AND, wth is your prob? freaking go make plans first you will die is it? tabai push the responsibility to me. knn. later plan alrdy, this one cannot, that one cannot. if you plan it in the first place, we could have saved a lot of time, TYVM.
TSK!!!

& sometimes I wonder if it's my fault that I feel this way. -.-?!

im dead beat.
eyes tired like mad.
mloct still not done. ):
what a great way to celebrate national day.
-.-

sent the two loves off just now.they had to assemble at 4 in the morning so we pretty much spent the whole night there
so drew, gin, hui, dean and royston played deal, camwhored and all at t3 from 11+ till 3+.
in the end, drew was late.
again.
HAHAHA @ him. =P
ohwell, they'll be back on the 12th.
till then, i'll be crying once every often.
ugh. what a loser. ):
miss them loads.

P.S: its going to be so much more worse when my ahwenlovelove goes for OSIP. i think i'll be crying buckets. ):

hey you human beings (if any)
im bored la kay.
its raining
but too early to slp.
zz.
tmr lect at 2.
slp early for whuttttttttt.
tsk tsk tsk

somehow this few days like eventful only
not all gd news but yea.
be strong emi!!
rocky's an angel now! (:

my hair is being annoying.
im cranky.
and emo-ish.
=/
i hate this feeling.
why i got this feeling?! ):

cant wait for tmr!
but somehow abit dont want tmr to come so soon.
=/
AHHHHHHHYA. tmr then say la.

kthxbai.

o mai gud nurse.
i have never been this tired, and stressed out.
idk why its getting to me now.
thurs, CPA test.
sat, MLOCT test
next week, MLOCT proj2
im pretty sure we've had worse in the past 2 yrs
but srsly. its like im getting all the stress.
all at one go.
):
my head's malfunctioning alrdy.
splitting headache.
eyes closing.
idk how im so tired when im slping more than usual.
and its not like i slp more than 8 hrs.
i slp at least 7, max 8.
wth is wrong with me?!

all the shit thats going on in life better stop soon.
why cant the whole world be nice to each other?
why the fuck do people have to take sides?
you just cant find a side to take for some stuff.
aiya, fuck all this. i think its just me making my life miserable for myself.
thank you very much.
BYE.

im fucking angsty now.
fuck the world.

Spain won.
I didn't. ):
ohwell. fun though
sch was okay?
sleepy the whole time though.
dance was awesome but my knee wasn't
zz.
I swear I hate my knee.
okthxbai.

为什么做人就是会选边站？
为什么就不能像圆圈一样？

had ems's belated birthday dinner at just acia just now.
it wasnt like how it used to be when we all hung out tgt
but somehow things are better?
really cranky today but somehow felt better while we were out
thanks all! loved the company! :D

tmr's self-declared belated youth day holiday. (:
happy like nobody's business
but im gonna try to slp early?
cos im dead beat alrdy.
ohwell. i shall slp early and wake up late.
DONT BE JEALOUS OF ME PLS!!! :D

ohboy, i think im going to quit cracking knuckles.
that crack in the wrist was SUPER painful pls.
=/
knee aint getting better but whatever. ):
not gonna bother bout it.
it'll get better gradually.
it always does. (:

in 10 mins time, you are going to be NINETEEN!!!
excited right?
i know.
how's the pre-birthday syndrome coming up?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
we are really really good friends eh.
my birthday they premiere New Moon.
your birthday, they premiere Eclipse.
(Y)
NAISE LAAAAAAAAAA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!. ENJOY YOUR YEAR COS YOU'RE NINETEEN ONCE ONLY!!!!
duh right?

history, you can stop repeating.
why is england losing to germany ALL THE TIME?!
@$%^#%#$#%
ohwell. the world isnt over anyway.
imma support germany now.
THEY BETTER WIN.
cos i dont want england to lose to a loser.
like optimistic only. :D


y'all have no idea how happy i am to see that nobody posted anything under warren tan.
warren tan said they would let us know the results mon or tues.
and its mon alrdy!
super nervous can?
really wanna get the spot cos im sick of rejections alrdy.
and srsly if by tues and i still dont get the call, i think im going to just give up on getting a secured spot in any firm.
no more spamming of emails alrdy.
THATS IT.
wait till sch allocates me a spot.
damn loser la. give up so soon but yea...




CANT BE BOTHERED NO MORE!! :D

(I was thinking of having one blog post without singlish but just look at the title. haven't even start and I fail alrdy. )

I've always wondered why we (law yr3s) cannot really stand the yr2s (also law), or maybe it's just the few who I'm closer with who find them unbearable/irritating/noisy/and the list goes on. but this really amuses me. if I rmb correctly, we didn't really like them even before we saw any of them step into ilaw. speak about being biase. i might sound like im exaggerating but really. it's that bad.

this yr has been better. got to know some yr2s. even though most are not from law but that's a start. and guess what, they're actually not bad. i mean, how bad can they possibly get?! we're all human beings right?! in fact, im pretty close to them too and that further supports my theory of 'how bad can they get?!'

so anyway, today pq and I were having some random conversation and we realized one thing. compared to us, they are afraid/scared that people judge them bcos of their actions/words/things that happen to them. for me, I actually don't really care bout what others think/say bout what I do or say. as long as I'm not doing anything illegal or against my principles, it doesn't really matter. but to the 92s, other's impression of them have quite a big effect on them. and at the end of that conv we realized that maybe it's the difference in age but then again, it's not like as if the age gap between us and them is that big.

and while I was waiting for my bus to get home, I rmbed this conv that I had with mummy when she said that 91 babies are somehow very 'stuck up' as compared to kids born in other yrs. then the mathematician in me linked 'stuck up' and 'not getting affected by what others think/say'

stuck up = not getting affected by what others think/say

somehow they seem to tally and for once, i actually kind of understood why mummy thinks so. also, from that I realized yet another thing. in life, most things are not as bad as what we perceive them to be but somehow after we add our preferences into the perception, reality gets warped and we end up thinking negatively. just like that theory of not getting affected by what others say or think, being stuck up seems the same, but it reflects negatively on the subject. all in all, it's still how we look at people or things right? what matters ultimately is still whether we look at things in a positive or negative light.

somehow, I feel guilty for thinking negatively bout the yr2s before I even got to know them. =/ I actually feel even more guilty that you had to read this boring post. I thought this sounded meaningful but after typing everything out, it seems like it doesn't really have a point. ohwell. (:

P.S: agree with me? and please, im not referring to how meaningless this post is.

just finished watching A-Team with the old clique minus 2.
movie was awesome but somehow something was off
no point beating round the bush alrdy
it's super obvious
there is smth off between us.
idk what man
we've been sweeping things under the carpet, ignoring the obvious and living our lives the way we think it's better.
maybe it is for y'all but it isn't for me.

walked to emi's from sch just now and it was like walk down memory lane.
the 2nd last time I took that way to emi's was with y'all and we had ao much fun tgt.
D made fun of that pri sch kid and we were laughing our heads off.
and the last time we took that way, things were messed up but we gt over it eventually.
those memories were great, made me really look forward to the movie and hope that maybe things ain't that bad, maybe things between us are still fine.
but it's not.
things haven't been fine for a long time
and that sucks, big time.

C has always been telling me to talk things out with y'all but the thing is, I really have no idea how to.
my perspective of my position in the clique is different from the perspective that y'all have.
with my point of view, I have no idea how I'm gonna go about talking to y'all.
the four of us are in the same class but somehow we drifted apart more than when we were all scattered in different classes last yr.
how on earth did that happen?
i keep thinking that maybe the change happened after yr3 started but really, I'm not sure myself.
smth must have happened for things to be like this now.
but what is it?
new frenda? old friends?
it shldnt matter at all, whether old or new.
misunderstandings?
why haven't we talked it out if it's cos of a misunderstanding?
we didn't go through all that shit frm ending of yr1 till now to just drift apart and be like what we are now right?
the movie just now, it was like as if we were 2 separate grps of friends.
after the movie, even more apparent.
things were not like this in the past..
if things were like how it was, we would be at macs or the arcade or going home after some failed attempt to plan mj or smth
but not going off in two different grps.

THINGS ARE DIFFERENT NOW.
we can't deny it alrdy,
so we gonna talk things out?
depends on you guys now.
D, I know you'll read this.
one day a kpo, always a kpo.
if you guys wanna keep things like this, I gt no choice also.
so yea.

(: